After watching a movie I thought to myself.. I really feel bad for anyone who has never said fuckit. Now this can only apply for a small group of people but age wouldn't matter. You see when I was growing up I was bullied, picked on, beat up, and abused. This went on for years until I decided to create my Tyler Durden. I may have not known it at the time but after years of being to bottom of the barrel I decided there needs to be a change. I portrayed myself as this God like creature a man of men, this was Snow. I didn't just wake up one day and decide this, it was a gradual transformation in to the image of the guy I wanted to be. Deep down inside I was always still Chris, this soft timid, caring guy that came out once in a while but mainly when I needed to pursue a girl. The art of deception is a double edge sword and I filled both sides nicely. I hurt a lot of people not knowing that it was a secret revenge imbedded in my brain from all the shit I put up with as a child and my early teens. Any girl who came in my path was deceived in to believing I was this sweet soft candy coated by a hard shell. [EDIT] Lost all urge to write